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Friday night

Posted: April 7, 2012 in Uncategorized
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I hadn’t been out sarging or seen my wings for weeks, so I told myself that on Friday (last night as I write this), that come hell or high water, I’d be hitting the club. It seems I spoke too soon…

On Wednesday, HBBrightEyes cancels our Saturday afternoon date, saying she’s decided to go home for the Easter weekend. I reply, no problem, let me know when you’re free. Then on Thursday night she texts me asking if I want to get together on Friday night. My immediate thought was that this was great, as it was the first time she’d been the one to pro-actively move things along.  Then I remembered my vow to go out on Friday and was faced with a tough choice.

On the one hand, so far due to the fact she’s always busy, meeting HBBright eyes has always been on her terms, which is partly due to her circumstances, but it irks me a little. So I didn’t like the idea of saying yes to a Friday night date at the last minute. It was pushing it a little. Also, I really did vow to myself to go out that night. I have flaked on my wings a couple of times in the past few weeks, and didn’t want to do so again. If it was the first time in a while I’d flaked on them I’m sure it’d be OK, but to do so again would be taking the piss. On the other hand, if I did not see her now, it would likely end up being three weeks between our second date and an opportunity for a third date. Things could easily fizzle out. Seeing as we don’t often get the chance to see each other, I should probably make some effort to see her, or she’d lose interest.

My gut reaction was to post on Seddit or the LSS asking what I should do. Last year, that’s what I would have done. Thinking about it, I realized that that was the move a frightend boy would make. A man would know this was his decision to make, and there would be no point in trying to delegate the decision to others. I think the fact that I realised this so quickly is an important milestone on the way to me being the man  want to be.

In the end I made the decision not to see her. In retrospect, seeing as I’m going out with my wings again tonight I could have seen her Friday and them Saturday (although I didn’t know this at the time). I’m really not sure whether or not this was a mistake, but I made my decision. I texted her telling her I was busy, and asking when she’d be back from her trip. 48 hours later and I still have no answer to my text.

Before going out on Friday I was worried that since I’d been away from sarging for so long my AA would be huge. It didn’t help that due to so many people going away for Easter weekend the club was dead and there were few women to chose from. I needn’t have worried though.

Early in the night I’m coming out of the toilets when I spot a HB7.5 with the biggest tits I’ve seen in a while on a girl who wasn’t fat. She’s dancing with her friend, but there’s quite a bit of a gap between them. I walk right up to her, into her personal space and start dancing with her. I was eye fucking her from the off, and she’s doing the same back to me. We’re grinding and I spin her round so she can ass grind me. I spin her back and start thinking about sending the sexual tension through the roof with some push-pull escalation then going for the kiss close. If that works I can try and bounce to a different part of the club, sit her down and build comfort.

So everything’s going great so far. A perfect response from her. But then something comes over me, and I get a little too in touch with my sexual side…

It wasn’t my fault. It was her tits that did it. You could have rested a pint glass on the fuckers. I knew it was way to early (we’re about 60 seconds into the set at this point), but I just had to get my hands on them. So I spin her around and give them a squeeze. She instantly pushes me away and storms off. I work off smirking like a school boy.

I open a couple more sets, but they aren’t receptive. There’s very few targets in the club, but then HBNorthen texts me. It’s a booty call. We agree to meet in 40 minutes time, so I have to leave soon. I do see one more set I want to open, but I’m put off by the fact I have to leave soon and bottle it. Still, I’m opening at least 70% of the sets I want to these days, that is a massive improvement since the beginning of the year when it was maybe 20%.

I leave with no closes and go and fuck HBNorthen. In the ass.

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Stats since 1st April:
1 number closes
1 kiss closes
0 f closes